If it was just for the plot I’d given five stars because I really liked it.
The book is told out of two perspectives… Amelia’s and Dash’s and I loved both.
It starts with Amelia meeting Dash and then you get to see what past the two now grown-ups share. They have loved each other since Dash saved Amelia when she was a little girl – the day they first met. But since Dash is three years older than Amelia neither of them confessed the true feelings to the other. But then Dash leaves for college and although he has promised to write he rarely ever does. When he comes back in summer as a sophomore and meets Amelia, they finally confess their love to each other but the next day Dash disappears and leaves a heartbroken Amelia.
6 years later they meet again… And that’s the point where both characters start telling the story alternately. Both still love each other but Dash thinks he isn’t worth being loved by Amelia because of the thing he did. But he can’t resist her or walk away from her again. And Amelia is fighting for him. She loves him and she knows that he still cares for her so she wants to know why he’d left her all these years ago. But that’s Dash’s secret he has to take to the grave. Eventually, however, Amelia finds out and so does the reader….
So the plot is not bad.
When Dash’s secret is revealed I first thought that Dash is kind of overacting by leaving Amelia all the years ago and by telling that he hasn’t earned Amelia’s love or being happy at all. But then I started to think about it and changed my point of view. Because Dash didn’t know Amelia’s thoughts and real feelings for her then. So I as the reader am quite sure that Amelia would have never let Dash down not even as a teenager but how could have Dash known about that? For him his deeds are unforgivable and besides that he was afraid. So I think I do understand him now. And I think it’s kind of comprehensible why he left and things turned out to be like they are now.
What I didn’t quite like were the small things like Amelia’s fighting for Dash… She is giving him orgasms with BJs or finger-jobs. And I don’t know but I think those scenes don’t quite fit into the plot. I mean Amelia is a person who thinks about feelings and she tells she is having sex with Dash because she wants to be near him but there are no more thoughts about it. I mean these scenes are told like a shopping list for food or something similar. I totally miss the feelings in those scenes. I somehow had the feeling that these scenes were told by another person. And this really, really disturbed me and is the reason why I rated the book with 3,5 stars only.